Yes, Still Kicking

Delve into the light and dark that is Mark
Delve into the light and dark that is Mark

For whoever may care, yes, I am still kicking on this very wet Saturday.

The weather is knocking me for a loop. From the cluster headaches to the breathing to the depression.

At least the weather mirrors what’s happening Inside My Mind.

That’s the way it is this weekend morning in Mark’s Den.

And how is your day going?

Late Rising – Again

Delve into the light and dark that is Mark
Delve into the light and dark that is Mark

Yes, I slept in again this morning to the late hour of 9 o’clock. Not sure why, but I did.

The cluster headaches continue to be a major pain. The breathing issues and pressure on my chest wall is still exasperating.

Low front after low front continues to move across the Cornfield. While the rain disappeared yesterday and will be gone today, it ain’t over yet. More rain is expected to arrive tonight. The weekend will be storm after storm.

Not much to say today. Seems lately there has been little to say.

That is not to say I have not anything to say. But, I am doing my best not to delve into the darker side of my mind which has been so dominant as of late.

That’s the way it is in Mark’s Den.

And how is your Friday going?

Bird Song

Delve into the light and dark that is Mark
Delve into the light and dark that is Mark

After turning in very early for me last night at 11 p.m., Chooey made sure I woke early this morning. I woke up shortly before 6 a.m. in plenty of time to sit, drink my coffee, turn on the news and listen to the bird song.

Following a stormy night and another heavy shower this morning, the birdies were greeting the day with chirps and singing. The sound of the bird song inspired hope that today God was in heavens and all was well with the world.

The night is now giving way to the breaking of dawn. Though gray, the light is dispelling the dark. For me,

I continue to fight the good fight. I refuse to allow my physical limitations exacerbated by the low pressure systems and stormy weather to get me down. I press on.

That’s the way it is in Mark’s Den.

And how is your Thursday going?

#ThursdayThrowBack photo:

No family get-together is complete without playing euchre - 2013
No family get-together is complete without playing euchre – 2013

Feeling the Pressure

Delve into the light and dark that is Mark
Delve into the light and dark that is Mark

The song uses the phrase, “wave on wave.” That’s exactly the way it feels as one front after another rolls through the Cornfield.

The pressure on my lungs is intense as thunderstorms strike. For the second day in a role the cluster headaches have asserted their dominance over my system with massive pain across my cranium.

I am more than ready for a high pressure system to hover over Mark’s Den for a several days, weeks or months.

Such is life.

I fight on. I adapt. I adjust. I survive.

That’s the way it is this midweek day in Mark’s Den.

And how is your Wednesday going?

Head Pounding Ahead of Front

Delve into the light and dark that is Mark
Delve into the light and dark that is Mark

Another low pressure front is moving into the Cornfield.

Not only is my breathing being disrupted, but this morning, my head is pounding. The cluster headaches are taking dominance with a vengeance. The pain is so severe I am ready to scream.

The sky is blue, but to the west it is darkening. The sun is bright. The mercury readings are almost summer. For anyone else, this would be day in which to delight. That is until the predicted thunderstorms begin to move into the Cornfield.

Not sure why, but Chooey allowed me to sleep in until the 9 o’clock hour this morning. That is the latest I have slept in ages.

This throws off my usual schedule, but who am I to complain about extra sleep time?

That’s the way it is this Tuesday in Mark’s Den.

And how is your day going?

April Winding Down

Delve into the light and dark that is Mark
Delve into the light and dark that is Mark

The month of April begins its wind down today as May ushers in on Sunday. As the month draws to an end its predictable April showers will sweep across the Cornfield.

The constant shifting from high to low to high to low pressure weather systems make spring not a favorite season of mine. The lows put heavy pressure on my chest cavity.

The changing systems have me gasping for air. The weather of spring limits my ability to be mobile even inside Mark’s Den.

Such is life as I so often say.

I just fight on, adjust and adapt. I pray that another bacterial infection does not strike and put me back in the hospital for a few days.

That’s the way it is this first day of the week in Mark’s Den.

And how is your Monday going?

Sunday Gospel: How Long Has It Been

Written by the late, great Mosie Lister, How Long Has It Been has always been one of my favorites.

Here I am privileged to sing it with The Crystal Valley Quartet. I am also the pianist.

Gray Saturday Morning

Delve into the light and dark that is Mark
Delve into the light and dark that is Mark

For the first time in several days, Chooey allowed me to sleep beyond 5:30 a.m. I actually managed to stay in bed until around 8 a.m.

I also turned in last night before midnight. I could not keep my eyes open. Perhaps it was because I had been on the run Thursday going to the doctor’s office and a bit of grocery shopping.

This morning the sky is gray across the Cornfield. The temperature is cool and will not be as warm as the last few days.

The mood inside Mark’s Den is also gray. There is a moody cloud hanging over my head. I can’t be specific, but that is not unusual.

Suffering from major depression, I can wake in a funk for no reason at all. Shaking off the melancholy is not always so easy to accomplish.

But I try.

That’s the way it is this Saturday.

And how is your day going?

All Clear Given

Delve into the light and dark that is Mark
Delve into the light and dark that is Mark

Thursday afternoon I had a post-hospitalization follow-up with my pulmonologist, Dr. Ajay Deshpande. The visit resulted in another all clear.

That clear signifies that the good doctor found my lungs clear and clean. I do not have to return for another check-up until July 5.

The lightning flashed. The thunder rolled. The rain fell.

That was last night.

This morning, the Cornfield is soggy and the sky is cloudy. Isolated thunderstorms are in store as the day wears on.

The weather continues to have an impact on my breathing which in turn saps my energy.

That’s the way it is on this Thank God Its Friday in Mark’s Den.

And how is your day going?

Follow-Up Day

Delve into the light and dark that is Mark
Delve into the light and dark that is Mark

Today I follow-up with my pulmonologist after being hospitalized at the start of the month with a bacterial infection. With a rainy night, cloudy day with more rain expected, it seems like a good day to be off to the doctor’s office.

Due to the rain and the pressure from the weather front, I had to sleep with my oxygen last night. I was feeling the effects all day yesterday, though most of the day I was without the O2.

This morning I am off the oxygen. I have to shower in a bit to be presentable for my trip to Terre Haute to see Dr. Ajay Deshpande. Most likely I will need the air to shower.

With my appointment not until 3:30 p.m., that means shortly after noon today I will be publishing my daily Kernels From the Cornfield.

That’s the way it is in Mark’s Den.

And how is your Thursday going?

#ThrowBackThursday photo:

4 years ago, before and after lung surgery when I blew up with sub-cu emphysema.
4 years ago, before and after lung surgery when I blew up with sub-cu emphysema.