Inside My Mind

Monday morning and questions persist in the Den. It is hot, muggy and sticky outside. Inside the air conditioner is keeping things cool. But a fire still rages inside of my being.

Kev's and Hailey's wedding is just a little over a month away. The wedding is in Austin, Texas. Iohn is slated to be an usher. Our room has been booked. Mom paid for the room in exchange for my keyboard and stand.

But...I am wondering...if the solution to our dilemma is in another direction. Iohn is 23 and has a lot of years ahead of him. He has a job that seems to be more secure this week than a little over a week ago. Question is am I holding him back? Am I saddling him with too much? He can make it no matter what I am sure. He could easily find a place to live, more so without me.

Perhaps the best course of action is for me to disencumber Iohn from the financial obligations and me move on down the highway into oblivion. Let Iohn find a place to stay, keep his job and move on with his life without having to worry about me.

He can survive and will probably prosper without an albatross like me hung around his neck. He can survive. He has proved it before and I have confidence in him and his ability to be resilient.

What to do? What to do? What is best for all?