Inside My Mind

Mondays can have weird effects at times. Such was the most recent Monday, yesterday. It was day that was emotionally traumatic. My psyche was filled with memories and pains of an incident from over 20 years ago that scarred me and haunts me. The details will remain within my gray matter unspoken and unwritten. Suffice to say that the event came crashing into my mind resulting in a Monday which left me drained, churning and hurting.

Usually on Monday evenings I make a trek to the Sullivan American Legion to enjoy an evening of karaoke. This Monday, I could not bring myself to join in the frivolity. This Monday, even picking Iohn up from work was a strain.

Now it is Tuesday. The trauma of the past has passed. The nearly perfect morning in the cornfield has brought a certain soothing nuance and ambiance to my mental acuity. I sit typing, although my eyes are heavy still feeling the effects of Monday. Deep inside I can feel the artesian spring of wellness building and bubbling. It has not risen to the surface yet...but I can sense the impending gusher of wellness.

The intense, severe cluster pain has passed. The depression phase that always follows is easing. There is a slight shimmer of light emerging out of the darkened corners.

Today marks the last day not only of June, but also marks the end of the first half of 2009. The year is starting its descent down the other side of the mountain already! Has time begun to pedal much faster or is it that as I age stretching of the minutes, the moments, the hours merged into a blurring frenzy?

At least the emotionally traumatic Monday has past.